Just wanted to say that I love you and that I am thankful for you. This year has been super hard and there is no guarantee that the next one will be much better. I never imagined I would be prevented from being in the same room as you for so long with no end in sight. I really hope the vaccines make a difference next year...or rather that they make enough of a difference so that at least we can meet in person. I miss being in the same room as you, but I am thankful to still have access to you over Zoom and I am thankful that both of us are healthy. We will go back to normal at some point...I'm sure of it. I just need to learn to stop living my life waiting. Need to stop resisting Zoom sessions. They aren't the same but they have their good sides too. I'm really stressed about Christmas and having to travel to see family. I love them, but they're difficult. My ability to tolerate stuff has gone down because I'm already stressed about covid and all the restrictions. I hope that when I come back, the test will arrive when it's meant to and I won't have to quarantine for longer than they said. Anyway, I'm rambling. I guess I just needed to feel close to you.

P.S. I did a naughty google search and found some photos of someone you know. No idea why...probably just curiosity. And stress...I wanted to focus on something, solve some puzzle about you. it kept me out of my own head. Anyway, I think this person's great btw--very intrigued by them. i'm sorry (but I'm not really, because you'll never know that I know).