Thanks so much for your kind words, of both of you. I'm glad it's OK that I talked about that stuff here.

Not sure how often the chat is active on this site, it happened to be when I got online to look a few days ago and yeah it helped. It would def be a good idea to have more chats like this. I think there is actually 7cups too, I tried that before, though it would be nice if they had more rooms (so it'd feel less chaotic to me lol. At least when I went there there were a lot of people in the chat room so it all went very fast)

Thanks for the idea about looking for a thread, but I'm not sure what you meant, what kind of thread?

And yes I do have motivation when I'm doing ok. Today was actually not bad... I did another jog and so maybe it'll be finally regular training this time, if I don't get sick. I did do a little work afterwards, about two-thirds of the plan so that was ok actually. It was an okayish day yeah, I somehow tried to not feel too much, neither up nor down, I felt like I'd be content with not feeling a lot, and just doing the things I wanted to do. I thought, if I'm doing good with this basic daily routine established then I can be ok with more emotions again (I mean just the normal up/down of life stuff) and more complex things too. Until then I don't have to worry about that part. That sortof worked out.

What didn't work today was, I did ask my mother to remind me if I want to do anything after breakfast... but she forgot and I got too deep in my head for a while. I got lucky that I did get to a good enough state to do my training in the early evening. And probably that's why I managed to do the work too afterwards.

So you asked me if I was up for sending a small set of goals... well that, that I would get out of my head sooner than early evening Find a way so that my mother can help me there. My problem with setting this goal and many others is what I'm slowed down and can't think of ideas. But I think I'm learning that it just takes longer to think of ideas

If that made sense.

So to summarise.... find help to be able to get out of my head in the morning. Do some work that way every day (except weekends maybe). Do the 15-min jogs every 2nd day for now. I'd be already VERY happy with just this!!