Really want to hurt myself felt it since late last night. Kinda have in a subtle way in re to hand washing the joys of ocd. But I'm really needing to do something but can't and won't as I'm at my Sister's been here since Mon night and here until Thurs during the day. Its the urges that are strong

Have put off the guy coming on Fri as my Therapist pointed out its far too rusky with covid she is true I'm a carer for my Mum I can't risk it