Thanks for your input!! The weird and funny thing is that when I read your post I was getting inspired "emotionally imagining" what you wrote. And I instantly realised that I was not ready to BELIEVE in this, to believe that this is what I want. Or something like that...

Rationally if I make sure I am not feeling anything then yes I am able to say that "yes I would like the chords to be cut". But emotionally I was not able to say this when imagining the above. Does this make sense?

Though I've tried to imagine it again now. And now I could imagine it better...imagining actually asking the "higher beings".

I do think I fluctuate though emotionally between not wanting to have anything to do with these people and between feeling stuck and still wanting something

(I'm not a very spiritual person BTW but sometimes I can get inspired)