SO... I think I have turned a corner!

I hope!!!

I feel SLIGHTLY better. I am no longer being ruled by my anger and rage, which was fueling me and propelling me to still engage with him and to confront him with the truth of the matter from my perspective.

I am now more fully accepting this divorce and the sad reality of the relationship ending - for the last 3 weeks, I think I was taking out all my pain on him over this needing to end now. Then it hit me yesterday that I must accept this new reality, which is I am divorcing him and I have chosen to leave him.

Once I realized this, I felt more empowered. It's MY choice. It's MY decision. And I am doing what is best and right FOR ME. And he cannot and will not be able to talk me out of it.

What I am dealing with now is REGRET - regret over not ending it far sooner and before we got married. I saw and knew of the abuse then.

As I had written previously though, I don't really believe in living with any regrets.

So how do I overcome my current regret?