I feel pretty badly today. Group went ok. But it’s just the idea of going to it that gets to me. I’m ok during group. But before there’s a lot of anxiety and afterwards there’s just a lot of depression of if I’m doing or saying the right things. Sometimes I just feel bad. I’m going to ask my Pdoc to raise my Geodon to 100 at night and my lamictal to 225. I think that will help a lot.

I tried going out grocery shopping after group. I left my phone at home on purpose. But every stores parking lot was jam packed and there were lines outside some stores to get in. So I didn’t bother and just came home. My mom went out earlier though and got me dark chocolate Oreos and cranberry English muffins.