Let's talk about the "friend from here" you couldn't bring yourself to burden. In that whole list, that one stands out as the one who didn't say no, and you didn't ask. ? Take another look please. I do that too, especially depressed, some sicko inside me wants to hear more "no's" wants to increase in desperation, wants the world to crumble.

Fact: no one who loves you will ever feel as burdened by your cry for help as they will by your departure from this world. Ever known that loss?