hi i kinda got into a bad spot at therapy and with my wife. when i first started dating my wife years and years ago when we first met she used to say that i would worry to much and be to paranoid and get to protective. i would worry that she wouldn't want to be with me but what worryed me the most was that someone would hurt her. now that we been together a long time and marryed almost three years now and together about five years i don't worry that she will leave me so much anymore but i worry more and more that someone will hurt her. i see on tv all time on the news about women getting raped or attacked or kidnapped and locked up somewhere and tortured. i have nightmares all the time that will happen to her.

when we went therapy on tuesday together we was talking about that with my therapist and i told them that i think i lived though everything i been through and stayed alive so that i could protect her and that i think that god kept me alive so i could protect her from something bad like that happening to her. i didn't think there was anything wrong with that but they both seemed really worryed. my therapist said that it sounds border line delusional and she wants try a different medicine or stronger medicine. i been delusional before seeing stuff and thinking a lot about god but not in a long time since i before i went in the hospital.

but i was wondering if you guys think that is crazy thinking that god kept me alive to protect her. thanks