It must be painful to go through ALL of this. i am So Sorry to hear it. Have you tried to talk to your children about ALL of this to explain at least partly the situation to them? Do you currently live with your Family? Is it possible for you to get away from them at least temporarely? SEnding many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Phrysca, your Family, your FriEnds, your children, your doctors and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!