Update: I'm feeling better about both of these things. With #1, I got myself to the library today and they were happy to print for me. With #2, I contacted the coordinator and apologized for leaving early (didn't tell her why I left), and she said she was just happy I'd showed up and was there for the time I was. Also I think only certain people got awards, not everyone, which I feel better about. I don't think I got one. edit: also I don't feel like I need to make a decision right now about whether to stay or go.