If it starts becoming uncomfortable for you and your Loved Ones then perhaps it would be best to contact your psychiatrist or family doctor. Being Christian is PERFECTLY fine but it must be something that has to IMPROVE your Life, not make it worse! It is REALLY GOOD that you have your Husband checking out on you at least in my opinion! SEnding many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Miguel'smom, your Family, your FriEnds, God, and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!