Hello again!

Oh that’s so crazy that he did something 2 years ago but kept working!! Not sure how long the teacher at our school got away with it but nobody suspected him!! But I had weird vibes right away when he invited me to happy hour!!

Oh wow I can’t imagine having my child love that far away from me, I bet it’s tough on your partner!

Omg he had a mistress!!! Wow!! I can’t believe some people... just wow!! You are probably much better off without him!!

Oh no about your daughter! Do you suspect that it might be BP? I’m so sorry she’s going through that. I don’t wish mental illness on anyone!! I’m so worried about it with my two children. I don’t want this to get passed down. I know I got it from my mom.

Yes I think so too with my husband. I know he’s scared, but I’m just so sad thinking that he lost his love for me. I’ve been trying to do things, but not sure if any of it is working. Only time will tell. I’ve been staying at his apartment and I sleep in the same bed with our daughter in between us. But there is no touch, nothing physical. We talk a little, but not much. Once a week I go to my house to do laundry and spend the night. We had a big talk the other day and that’s when he told me he didn’t know how long it would take for his feelings to come back.... no he has never gone to a session with me. He’s usually working during my virtual appointments. Plus I don’t think he would want to.

Oh no! I’m sorry to hear about your relationship being rocky. I hope he can let it go too, especially if it was just anger and words. I did a lot more than that!! Wow, he learned about it in the beginning of the relationship, so he knows what to expect. My husband only had experience with my mom but never thought I would get it. He tried to diagnose me and tried to help me but it wasn’t enough.

You weren’t even on lithium that long and developed problems!! How much were you taking? I’m thinking of asking my pdoc about a different mood stabilizer.

Did you get any feedback about the chocolates?

Wow zero cases??!! Well one of my sisters just tested positive.... so I’ve got to get tested next week. All of my siblings and daughter and mom met up for my brother’s birthday.... my mom and daughter got tested negative but it might have been too soon to test. It’s really bad in the US.

Yes I thought I was starting a social revolution and I was getting my students to join in. Thankfully not many were logging on last year... I was trying to make a change in the world.

The friend I have in California thinks I don’t need to be on meds and doesn’t believe I have bipolar. I haven’t talked to him in a long time. How long have you had bipolar? I read somewhere that you can wean yourself off of lithium after a few years and having no episodes. I don’t know though. I’m scared to go through it again and I don’t want to lose my daughter.

You had a good party for your son too? 😊 with backdrops nice! I’m a photographer, well haven’t been in awhile... so I really went all out. Yea my husband told me that when I said how sad I was that I couldn’t do as much. He told me I could for her 3rd birthday.... but who knows if this Covid crap will go away and how I will feel next year. I still don’t feel normal and not sure if I ever will. And yes they do need us for sure!!

Our birthdays are close! So were u born in 78 also?

What kind of stuff do you like to watch? I’ve seen so many movies and tv series!! I don’t normally watch animated stories but my brother in law told me to watch Avatar, the last air bender and I really got into it! I’ve also been watching Christmas movies lately.

I’m at his apartment now. He said he was going to the store so I asked if he wanted me to go with him and he said no. He used to always ask me if I wanted to go..... today I was thinking about how loving he was when I had our baby and when he took off for leave and we were together at the house. I think it was the happiest we ever were. I don’t know if it’s even possible to get there again.

So first day off for the holidays. I know time will go by too quickly! I’m going to try to stretch it out as much as I can.

Sleep was about the same - 4 hours, then maybe 1 or 2 hours. It’s hard to tell on my second round of sleep. It’s so strange how I’ve been having that same pattern. Some days I get 5 hours on the first round.

I hope you had a good day and night!!