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I hear you on the ED stuff. My ED has flared up big time since being in therapy (how ironic). I suspect it's a way of keeping me busy and distracted from my thoughts and especially my feelings. Like, if I feel really hungry, and it hurts, then I don't have to feel ANYTHING ELSE. When I get more "normal" with my eating, I feel more feelings. Which, technically, is what I'm supposed to want - the whole reason I started therapy was because I was tired of going through life sort of half-alive. But, oooooh, feelings can be big and scary!

I think there is ALWAYS a point in going to T. If for no other reason than to maintain the connection. As soon as I start feeling disconnected from T, I want to shut down with him....so I tell myself I'm going to just go, and be in the safety of his office and his presence, and just talk about the weather for an hour if that's all I can do (and yes, I've had a couple of sessions that were that boring! lol)

I'm glad you posted about how you're feeling.