Hi, all! I'm just about to go to sleep. I was reading a book: The Dark Side of Innocence by Terri Cheney about growing up bipolar. But I picked up my phone and it said I had a new email. It was a forward from a long-time friend of my mom's. My sister and I stayed with for for the weekend every so often. She liked this because she had only boys. So she starts her email to my mom saying she got my mom's Christmas card and how are her kids? Last she'd heard, I was trying to fix up my resume and what job did I have now? She went on to ask about my sister and her kids. This got to me because my big accomplishment for the week has been turning in my paperwork to DHS for renewal of food stamps. Just seems like that's what my mom could say: Moose has no job and is on food stamps... Makes me feel like a loser. Even here on the bipolar board people have jobs. In these covid times, I tend to stay home unless I have to turn in paperwork or get groceries or prescriptions. I need to get more pix of my kids all together but when could I do that- we aren't even getting together this year for Christmas! Anyway, I do feel like a loser sometimes. Even writing in my blog doesn't give me the satisfaction that it used to.