He is begging again with me. We texted a bit last night and this morning. He says he wants to come home. He's begging for forgiveness.

I am not bending. I told him he's blown it with me.

This is the time when abusers easily weasel their way back in - after the woman leaves and starts missing him and then starts blocking out the abusive aspects of the relationship because she misses the good parts. I've read about this being a very vulnerable time for a victim of abuse.. I am trying really hard to maintain the course and to not let him sway me.