His begging is making this harder. Much harder. Ugh. It's tugging on my heart strings... him saying he wants to "come home". I feel like I'm living in a movie. Except it's MY movie. So basically I've kicked him out of our home. I know he's regretful of his actions, but there is so much more. I could never trust him again. And he's abusive. How could I possibly continue in this relationship with him? Even if he were willing to get help, it's not going to change him. He needs like TEN years of individual therapy - PLUS, he's a narcissist, and he won't even know this OR realize this about himself. There's no point.

And yes, I suppose for a minute I've wondered if I'm doing the right thing. It's not easy when he begs and pleads with me, telling me how "profoundly" miserable he is without me.