Hi everybody,

I'm so happy I found these forums.

I have been married for 21 years with 2 older kids. My husband has always struggled with honesty and has hidden a number of different things from me since we met - purchases, porn, smoking, gaming. He lost his job in March and again, started hiding smoking and buying various things without telling me. Then he started going on to Twitter, complimenting women and sharing really crude jokes. My kids found this out and told me. I made the decision to ask him to leave. He finished moving out the day before yesterday. It was just getting too uncomfortable for everyone at our house.

I'm really struggling coping with feelings of grief, regret, sadness, anger. My brain just won't shut off.

I miss the husband that I had 2 years ago before COVID, before he started isolating himself, before he found his phone/computer more interesting than his family.

Any tips how I can tell my brain to shut up? Or any book recommendations? I am open to anything that may help.

Thank you! I look forward to meeting you all.

Dee