I have been away. I have not even been online for a few weeks. I have been shut down and hibernating. I am so sick with worry about the economy and heating oil and food. I had spouse get some oil by hand a few days ago as we need it for hot water and daughter coming home for summer. It cost him 125 for 20 gallons. I am so sick with the worry for staying warm and buying food. I have never seen anything so bad. I am looking for a wood stove and we can cut wood from our land. I can't even afford the wood stove and it does get very cold here. I had insulation on all of the wiondows all winter and the house is very well insulated. I made sure of that. I know compared to many we don't use much oil but it still costs more then we can afford. I also worry that our insurance is going way up. There is no money as it is. I am thinking that we should get rid of the internet. Here it is a big expense. Life is much more expensive here. I feel my stomach tighten as I write this. I am so scared. We will continue to grow and make as much food as possible. My spouse takes a moped to work most of the time. I stay home unless I have to go to appointments or such. How does anyone heat their home? It is time to tighten up even more now.