I know exactly how you feel. I just left my husband today. You said that you have kids, well, eventually child welfare will get involved. That's what happened to me. The cops got called out too many times from people hearing me getting beat. That's how I finally had the strength to leave him... Cuz when it comes down to it, what's more important? him or your kids? He'll never change. Don't fall for those fake tears either, he's just feeling sorry for himself, not you. Quit making excuses and just leave girl. Over 200 women die accidently from domestic violence every year. Don't let it be you.