I don't feel well this day. My motivation is gone and I am self-blaming. I found DBSA's "Wellness wheel" at Internet today. That helped me to remember that I am not alone. So here I am writing again.

I will write a grocery list and send it for delivery (today)
........... shower.
........... make dinner and eat it.
.......... fill the washing machine.
......... vacuum clean if I have the energy.

Tomorrow I have an appointment with my GP. I have not made any plans for the 23th. On the evening before Christmas day my family will come and bring me to the place we will be together for celebration this year. I look forward to that (may be that's why I have so little motivation today? I have a tendency to feel terrible before something good is going to happen, as if I don't think I deserve it).

I am posting a link to "Wellness wheel" in case somebody find it useful:
DBSA Wellness Wheel - Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance