Hey there!

I’m trying to go back to paragraphs I missed in my earlier message to respond to. My daughter is still sleeping and it’s 8:30. She usually goes down anywhere between 9-11 and wakes up around 9:30-10. When I go to work I leave the house around 6:45 and drop her with my mom 5 minutes away. She stays asleep or goes back to sleep. At night she gets wired and doesn’t want to sleep. She doesn’t always use a tablet and I know it’s bad but sometimes that’s the only thing that keeps her from jumping and bouncing and gets her calm to put her to sleep. I used to sing to her every night and rub her hair. I still do that sometimes and it works too. My husband used to like it when I sang and it helped put him to sleep too but I don’t think he likes it much anymore. So if I do, I quietly sing. I don’t have a great voice either lol. I know one day my daughter will tell me because my older daughter did when she got older!

Ok psychosis.... I guess I only really had it after I smoked the weed. I also hadn’t slept in a couple of days, maybe an hour or two. One of the doctors I spoke to said I probably had it before that. BUT the only time I lost control where I was in autopilot and it felt like it was a dream the next day was after the weed. When I smoked it years ago it only made me hyper and talk a lot and giggle, nothing like that.

Lol about the milk! I don’t know why people follow around someone who is angry!! My husband would sometimes get me so mad I would tell and he would tell me that was good and to let it out. I think I was drunk though.... I remember going to a bathroom once and yelling. Other than that I typically don’t let stuff bother me.... except one lady at my job. She’s a step team couch. She decided to move a bunch of my clubs stuff in a closet we shared without any consideration or permission. I ran down the hallways one morning to get a master key so I had access to the closet and to burn off my anger. I also spoke to the principal about it and went on a rant telling her that this woman thought she was all powerful to do what she pleases. The principal told me it was inconsiderate and that was it. She also asked me what I wanted to do about it. I told her nothing, what’s done is done. They also gave me another closet area to use but it’s super tiny and cluttered with library stuff. I just had to let it go. But I remember how pissed off I was!! They was also a couple of months before my mania.

I can see how that would bother you with your daughter confiding in the other woman, but very good of you to think that at least she has someone to turn to. Is she close like that with her father?

Is a theatre a hospital? We use theatre for movie theatres here. Natural do you mean without an epidural? Both of my children were vaginal with epidurals... the difference was my first I couldn’t feel anything and pushed her out right away. With my second, well it stopped working early in when I was maybe 4cm dialated. Every time they gave me more drugs in the epidural they would wear off at first after an hour then after 45 min then 30 min.... even when they gave me really strong doses. I just don’t think meds work very well for me!! When it was time to push I felt everything!!!! All of those painful contractions. My husband thought I was going to pass out. I was even begging for a csection! But when I began to push I didn’t feel any pain!! It was like a miracle and the nurse said that is true. I think I pushed for about 30 minutes. She came at abou 11:52 am. My husband didn’t want her to be born on 7/11 so I pushed as hard as I could and watched the clock!!

That’s so sweet that your daughter smiled and had a wonderful look on her face. Did you get any photos? My husband took a good one of his 2 daughters and my oldest holding our newborn. Thank goodness for phone cameras... I have zero photos of my first daughter in the hospital. No one had a camera!

Jolly ranchers are hard flavored candy that you can only suck on, they come in all flavors like strawberry, cherry, grape, sour apple, etc. meh kept a bag of them and in his pockets at work. He can smoke while he works so it was a super big challenge for him. Also all of the guys at his job smoke too! I know you can quit when you are ready!! 😊

Oh ok about work cover. I don’t think ours is 100% the same. We just have this thing called FMLA, family medical leave act that protects us. That’s it. It’s usually for when you have a baby or any medical issues.

Even though he’s an old English teacher, he’s also a guy so let’s hope that’s what contributes to him not understanding!! 😅

So my daughter is now awake... I will try to get back on later to respond to your last message, lol trying to keep up! I’m using my phone. My computer is at my house and also my password is only saved to my phone. It was an auto generated one that iPhone does. I think I can look it up. I can text pretty quick but I might be faster on a computer not sure. Ok she’s taking control of my arms and all over me, chat later!