So Sorry to hear about your struggles! i can definitely relate. Are you currently going to school? Many schools often have a therapist or some sort of office where students can go to when they need support. Perhaps it would be a good idea to check that out? Perhaps you can also try to talk to someone else you trust about ALL of this such as a teacher or another relative? SEnding many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @ziggystarlord144, your Family, your FriEnds and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!