Open eyes,

Thank you, I think you are really right about that. I definitely always feel that something is/was missing, my dad was emotionally neglectful and I am trying to find answers to that and understand that. I am also dealing with feeling betrayed and neglected by my partner as he just got diagnosed with ASD and cannot connect with me emotionally when I need support. I am trying to come to terms with that and recognize that my relationship with him is a lot like the one I had with my dad...emotionally impoverished...

It is emotionally exhausting and I too wake up feeling like I really want answers but the work is slow...it feels so extreme at the same time, its very slow until I realize something, all of the sudden it hits me and I just feel so lost and like I don't know who I am. Its like "okay, I have problems stemming from childhood, where do I go from here?" haha. I'm just trying to get involved in groups and talk about it with others because I don't want to feel so alone.