Where I say I know for a FACT that he did not see my soul, is because of how he TREATED me (and other women). And I mean, I was tryin to make sense of the emotional part beyond the sex part, I wanted to see if he still had some feelings after all, but since all the processing I've done in these 3 years since I cut him off, I did slowly discover how bad he really treated me emotionally. Which explained why I got such bad emotional and mental reactions from it and why it nearly fully destroyed me. So the processing for 3 years it wasn't a wasted time because I couldn't have seen the above either without it. If that makes sense. I just am glad that I can point to this lie, besides other lies, this one just really hits deep and really untangles s*** for me.

I really do also dislike how much he denied any wrongdoing too. Like it was all staring in the face, sex is a pretty objective act, even if I tried to explain away the emotional expressing of his, but he thought he can just CALMLY, FIRMLY and OPENLY deny it, it was so shocking I couldn't even believe it and I didn't take it in. But it's all of course making full sense by now.