I attend group therapy on my computer online and I am thinking about quitting after 5 sessions. It hurts when I wanted to talk about something painful that happened to me last week but not being able to expand on it. We are asked at the beginning to say briefly how the last week went. The group is 4 people and the therapist with session time being 1 hour and 30 minutes. Each week one client has to take up all the time to talk about. People take turns each week. The last time it was my turn was early last month. These sessions just drag with people repeating themselves saying the same thing in 5 different ways. I am filled with sadness at the moment because I had really difficult last week (It is not related to elections) and having no time to talk about how much pain I feel. I just spent 1hr and 30 mins listening to this guy talk about wanting to end his romantic relationship even though both people in it are happy together. The other people are just elongating the conversation since they eventually just repeat themselves.

As the session went on, I started feeling sad and angry emotions. I just wanted to interrupt session to get some speaking time. I am way too selfish for group therapy. I zone out and lose interest quickly. Being in group therapy makes me feel even lonelier because it is a space where I can seek support but it hurts not being able to elaborate on how I am doing. Much rather be lonely by myself than in group therapy. I am leaning toward emailing the therapist and telling them that I don’t want to be apart of it.