I feel rejected and abandoned and in despair. Well what should I expect? I put all my eggs in one basket and I hurt the woman I love. It was a foolish thing to do. To bite the hand that feeds me. And now she pushes all my fragile emotional buttons. She hurts me deeply so I can feel her pain. I'm sure I deserve it, her tongue lashings, her verbal abuse, her bitter incantations, but it hurts just the same. An eye for an eye, that's her motto. As sadness overwhelms me, my emotions play tricks on me. Fight, flight or freeze. My emotions overwhelm me. I am frozen in a quagmire of hopelessness. Tears well in my eyes. I'm praying. I'm coping. I'm rationalizing. I'm gasping for air. Beam me up Scotty! I don't want to stay here.