Hey you! I hope you are sleeping well. Me, eh, it was a terrible night. I woke up after 2 hours, then again after 2 hours. Then I had such horrible stomach pains that I could barely get any rest after that.

So yesterday at dinner I noticed he wasn’t wearing his wedding ring. 😢 It’s the first time since he asked me to put it back on him almost 3 months ago. I don’t know why it’s off. I didn’t have the courage to bring it up. I tried looking around the apartment for it but didn’t see it so not sure where he put it. So maybe me thinking about it kept me up last night. I don’t know what’s going to happen between us. I was thinking about re-gifting a picture frame I had inscribed about 4 years ago for Christmas that says I will love him always and forever and it had photos of us in it... i has also added his last name to mine and had it added to the frame. I remember he cried because he didn’t think I was going to ever add his last name. I didn’t because he originally told me I didn’t have to... but eventually I did. But I don’t know how he would feel opening it up again.... I’m going to ask his daughter And my daughter what they think.

This morning I’m going to leave my little one with my mom and take my oldest daughter and step daughter to breakfast and shopping. I’m trying to get out and do stuff so I’m not just sitting around on my break. Yesterday I also went out with my little one and my mom. We went shopping to some thrift stores but didn’t find anything so we went to a place called Sams. It’s a private wholesale store that I have a membership with.. I bought 2 Christmas outfits for my baby... I don’t buy much anymore so it felt a little normal. I used to have a Christmas outfit for almost every day in December!! I dressed her up all the time with lots of bows. It’s just not the same right now and it breaks my heart so I’m pushing myself to do more. I have got to feel more balanced!! Today is my dr apt so I will see what they have to say about a med switch. I’ve been seeing a nurse practitioner that I thought was a psych. It’s who they gave me after the hospital but today I’m going to see a psychiatrist who is her “supervisor”. It was her recommendation.

I’m so sorry your son has HFM disease again!! I hear they can get it in daycares often and that sucks!!! 😢 I hope he feels better! That’s rough that he wouldn’t even take a cookie!! When my baby doesn’t take one I know somethings up for sure!!

I used to think giving technology to small children was bad but now I see the benefits. You are right, they can learn so much from them!!
Oh wow your sons eating habits sound so much like my daughter!! She also loves yogurt and hates vegetables! But she doesn’t always like bread. She does eat meat but is very picky. She even hates macaroni! Last night she didn’t eat anything on her plate. She does love strawberries and sometimes blueberries. We keep trying everything with her but she’s picky and can skip meals. She also likes pickles and sometimes a bite or two from a hotdog. But she dies love sweets and candy!

Her favorite song is 5 little monkeys jumping on the bed. I’ve never heard of Alice the camel. When she was little she watched Little Baby Bum all the time. Also tons of counting songs too, but she can’t count to 20. She will sometimes say 1 2 5 6 7 9... but when I count with her and say 1, she always says the next number instead of repeating me. She will watch baby bum sometimes. She loves any cartoon with princesses.

Haha yea she is not liked by most people in the English department. One day she decided I’d take over an entire workroom after getting permission from I can’t remember who maybe an assistant principal but never spoke to the English dept. they just found all of their files shoved into the break room! So she’s not on anyone’s good list!
Geez sounds like there is drama at every school even in other countries! I don’t blame you for not liking being told what to do especially if what you are doing is a good thing!! No you don’t need the stress and they can figure it out if the new teacher doesn’t arrive!!

Aww that’s too bad he missed the shot and they couldn’t do it again? I really wanted my daughter to have blue eyes. My husband has green/blue and I thought for sure she would get them since one of his other daughters has them and my dad has blue eyes. I have brown hair and brown eyes too and that’s what my daughter got. Except she got super thin hair from his side of the family. My hair is a lot thicker.

Your paid time off and leave sounds much nicer! We only get 7 days of sick time each year and that rolls over too. The FMLA is only to protect our job without any pay. I never took off work and when I had my daughter I used FMLA to take a 3 month leave and used up all of my sick days.. I had a very small check for the last month. But I wanted as much time off as I could get. When I went to the hospital I was off work 2 weeks. I only had 7 days paid and the rest unpaid but the FMLA held my job.

So I didn’t get to see the star of Bethlehem. My husband said he saw before the 2 planets touched but then said it looked like it passed. I never went outside to check and he didn’t ask me to. I thought he was going to.

So I used to drink coffee for the effects of it plus the taste. I also drank Starbucks a lot. This ugh my favorite is coffee I had in England... for some reason I can’t think of the name! It was more popular than Starbucks. But now I try to drink it for the energy, but for some reason it doesn’t feel like it gives me the same energy like it used to. Sometimes I do that too, forget about it and reheat it. When I go to work I take it in this cup that keeps it hot for hours. It’s nice. I just can’t drink any caffeine after 11/12 otherwise I don’t sleep at night!!

Yes I have a religious background too. That’s so interesting that it was the second coming. I think my cousin had similar ideas when manic. I wonder why even people who are not religious have similar episodes about God. Mine were just God leading me to do or say things. One was calling an old friend and telling her she wasn’t depressed. I didn’t even know that she was depressed. It was the friend that got transferred to another school because of the pedophile teacher.... I talked to her really fast and not even sure everything I said. She told me that she didn’t know how i summed up everything she had been thinking for the last year!!! So ya I really really thought God was leading me and I felt powerful. Then I went to my sisters house and told her that her best friend was a b-itch. Then I said sorry but it’s true and and want she needed to know that she was using her. It’s all true but I felt way too bold. I thought I knew everything and that I was gifted... it’s so strange having this disorder.

Pets... wow those are expensive!! Well... I had Bella, a small cairn Terrier mix with maybe chiwawa... my husband bought her for a birthday present for me. I had her about 6 years and Emma was a Beagle that I had for about 2 years. When I got depressed I couldn’t take care of them. 😢 I was feeding them but I didn’t love on them and they weren’t making me feel better and I couldn’t make them feel happy. Then they got fleas and I freaked out. I was still staying in my house by myself and imagined them getting out of control. I sprayed the yard and treated them but the fleas weren’t going away. I kept telling a friend of mine about it and how I didn’t feel like a good dog owner so she found two great homes for them. I think they are much better off. I do think about and miss them.

Ok I think I have now responded to everything lol! We do talk a lot! I need to get outta bed and get ready for the day! See ya!