Chihiro, I honestly think he's just a bad therapist. I know you respect his mind, but he is bad at his job, and he is (repeatedly) hurting you.

Merope, you did exactly what I would do in your situation. Practical (because you need a job) but so unpleasant. I hope you can find some ways to make Christmas at least okay-ish: favorite foods or movies, special time to do a hobby, whatever really appeals to you. It's hard to be away from people you wish you were with, and it's also an opportunity to be that lovely, supportive person to yourself.