So Sorry to hear about your struggles! Are you currently seeing a therapist? Sometimes therapy can be REALLY useful especially if combined with effective meds like those you are already taking. Hope they're helping at least a bit! Try to distract yourself as much as you can. Do not give up Hope! SEnding many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Health Warrior, your Family, your FriEnds and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!