Include me in the all mixed and depression group. I haven't experienced "fun" hypomania in at least 12 or 13 years (I'm 50). Even without medication there's been no good-times hypomania...just the miserable kind with mixed states and depression. The meds help me sleep, which is huge for me, and they help me recognize that my thoughts are depression and I don't have suicidal ideation every day like I did before meds...just a few days a month now. But that's it, that's the grand sum of improvements I've reached with meds 20 years after diagnosis.
I've been finding myself, asking, outside of eating yummy junk food, and bingewatching, is life ever going to be fun again? I'm sure it will be, but it's really hard to see that sometimes.
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