HIs behavior is DESPICABLE. I am appalled. I am thinking back on ALL that he did and ALL that he put me through.

Starting with just before the wedding, and on our wedding day - buying cocaine with MY money, without asking me and in knowing that I am dead set against using coke? Coercing me into doing coke on our wedding night??????? Blowing up at me on the morning of our wedding and telling me to leave him alone? I asked him then, is this how you're going to treat your WIFE?

He held off on all the explosions until just after our honeymoon - then it was a landslide of them. One after another after another - the nasty fighting. HIS nasty fighting. Breaking up with me repeatedly just after our wedding. UN-FREAKING-BELIEVABLE.

The real icing on the cake was him cheating on me, after telling me 100 times that he is "not wired to cheat" and how he would NEVER cheat on me. Then he claims he did not cheat, when clearly he did. He's such a liar! I believe he's in fact, a pathological liar.

I am still astounded by how much his actions did not match his words. I am truly floored by him.

I'm having a bad day again.