I feel ok today. I was anxious until I drank a mug of stress relief tea. I am very tired though from my 3rd night in a row of not sleeping well. Physically besides being tired I am fine. We usually go out to dinner on Christmas Eve. Since we can’t do that this year we are getting Outback to go. We had to place our order last night so we could get a spot. Restaurants for carry out are getting booked super fast. I am hoping Christmas Day will be just a regular Christmas. My family is coming up in the afternoon and then we open presents and have turkey. Saturday my aunt and her boyfriend are coming over for dinner. I hope everyone who comes over has been staying safe so people aren’t getting Covid 2 weeks later. That would suck to get Covid a couple months before you get the vaccine.

I just told my mom a really mean joke about my Pdoc that was totally unlike me. I really need to chill out sometimes. I’m In group for a couple hours each day and then I just need to blow off steam because things get stressful. Still not an excuse for me being an asshole but I know my mom won’t respond badly when I say rude things about other people and I only tell these bad jokes to her.

He still hasn’t called despite saying he would when I was in group. It’s not a big deal if he doesn’t call but I am just waiting around for the call and I can’t take a shower or anything.