I deeply appreciate your texts while your on vacation. Also to vent ....my ex's wife needs to get covid19 tested, my son is there and was visiting during the holidays . now I wont see him for atleast a extra week. he has to quarantine there until her results come back and when they do if neg he will come back here if positive he will be staying there until we are sure its safe for him to come back to me. I feel myself spiraling already. dissociation fogginess numb and my thoughts are not good ones. why do I go to a place of such despair..I think its so that when it really happens its not so bad because I already knew it ...atleast my thinking but nothing can prepare yourself for really bad stuff. You know I will keep in touch i hope you know also that if I were to lose touch its a bad sign. then you need to please reach out to me i hope you know to do that...do you?? My dad recovered from Covid, I dont want to have a son recover or even get it.