Dear Beadlady and suzy,
thank you for sharing of yourselfs with me.
It is really something wonderful to have the ability of exchange via the internet.
I too have lost someone I cared about, my brother to suicide...it devastated my parents, and have never gotten over the feelings of guilt and sadness and anger...that was 18 years ago. My mother suffers with depression all of her life and used to have taking her life as an option, tucked away it the back of her mind, when he killed himself that took that away forever.
I too am bipolar 1, have been a bit hypo manic being on this computer for hours and hours over the past week when I should have been doing other things. But have also been depressed with my self...feeling bad...so need to doing something to change that...I resist change so much.
thank you again for sharing...I wish you both wellness. I am 45 and think I am having a mid life crisis...perhaps I should go back into counseling....
bizi