I am doing alright. I took the first gabapentin pill last night and I woke up without any irritability That was quicker than I expected. I did feel woozy and like I couldn't concentrate at all and maybe like I have pins and needles in my hands and feet, so we'll see if that improves. I don't know about increasing the dose to two pills. My just leave my doctor a message about that (instructions to increase to two pills if I tolerate the one). Tonight I took one pill again and it again knocked me out, but then I woke up at like midnight and I cannot go back to sleep. My mood got so bad by last night before I took the pill that I was losing my mind and crying and so irritable it was pretty bad.

I am glad my irritability is gone in time for the holiday because I want to talk to my family and I was wayy to irritable to handle talking to people before. So, this is an improvement.

Now I just need to keep my brain together to finish up my work projects in the next week. I also only applied to that one job and I am getting worried that I screwed up the second group interview. I just seriously was struggling and couldn't think clearly. Now I can't stop thinking about how badly I did and how it might have cost me the job. But I am trying to remind myself that it's not my fault my brain was messed up and I did my best. That's all I can do I guess. I am just stressed about being able to be stable at a job and all that.

Oh yeah and I found out my potassium and ferritin were low. My ferritin was only like 4 ng/mL (normal like 11 to 300 or something around there). Somehow I do not appear anemic though? I am waiting for my PCP to call to discuss. So, that could explain some of my fatigue. I wonder if improving my nutrition could improve my moods too.

Anyways I am rambling and not sure what I am even talking about so I am going to try to go to sleep. Hope everyone is well