UGH - can we now take out the violins??????? PITY PARTY!!!!!!!

Once again, this is ALL ABOUT HIM - NOTHING ABOUT ME. As always!!!!!! All that matters to him Is HIM, what HE'S going through, and how HE FEELS! Nothing about how sorry he is that he's hurt me and devastated me to pieces - NOTHING.

I am sickened - I am not replying to this sob story of a text I just got from him:

I’m glad you have people to be with. I have been and will be alone. Completely alone. I have not been able to listen to or enjoy music I drive to work and back again in complete silence. I can’t sleep. Averaging 3hrs a night. My work performance has degraded by 50% not sure how much longer I will be able to keep my job if this continues. I am in a very bad way. I will be there Sunday I don’t expect you to feel sorry or actually reply to me it’s not necessary. I lay awake wondering when the nightmare will end. When I do dream it’s of different scenarios with us then I wake up to reality and cant contain my sadness and disbelief as to what has happened. I hope and wish for the best for you this holiday.