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Originally Posted by BreakForTheLight
Day one and I'm already breaking down.
I wanted to still make it nice even though I'm by myself. Went to the supermarket after work this morning and half the things I wanted, they didn't have, so I'm already low on comfort food. I just looked at the cake mix I got and realized I should have done that in the store to see what else to add. Now I don't have any butter or eggs so no cake baking. That's when I burst into tears. Over a freaking cake. Or rather no freaking cake.
I've just really had it with things going wrong and constantly trying to keep up my spirits but then SOMETHING always comes and messes it up. Or my stupidity messes it up.
Now I just feel really stupid sitting here in my decorated living room by myself.
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You are not stupid. You may feel stupid but you are not at all.
You sound like a strong person who is suffering. It isn't easy to live the way you have had to live. It's hard! Please be gentle on yourself. Ride this holiday out whatever way you can. Comforts, music, TV, film, books, art, whatever transports you from this.
We're here for you!