i don't have a lot of useful advice to give but i'll Happily provide Support. Please do try your best to keep your mind busy and distracted by trying out hobbies and activities. If things get worse Please do seriously consider checking yourself at the nearest hospital or at least contacting a therapist or doctor. SEnding many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Kriss, your Family, your FriEnds and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!