Thank you all for commenting, especially wovengalaxy. I don’t have a big circle of friends so it’s been hard to get out of my head and stay occupied. I’ve also had to start a new job that pays well but I hate..it also leaves too much down time to think. I have plans to build a home soon, which has been fun to plan. I accept my new reality, and there is a part of me that looks forward to what my future brings. I just seem to not have had the ability to get her out of my thoughts.