I hear you.

I am wondering if music might be helpful in drowning out some of the distracting noise around you? Maybe earphones? So you can focus on something that makes you feel good.

We are all here for you, on this thread. If you look on the General forum there is a Virtual Christmas party thread if you'd care to join us too.

Azul is right. This will end at some point. You won't have these pressures to deal with then.

You mentioned running I think a while back? I run too. If you look at running as a metaphor, it is always the last lap or few miles that feels hardest, whatever distance we run. I think we are beginning the last lap of this pandemic now.

Hang on in there. We are here for you!