The first memory I have have was my dad asking me what I wanted for my birthday and me being very confused why he was asking that because from my perspective we just celebrated my birthday the week before. I didn't realize it at the time but I later figured out that other alters must of been fronting during that time causing me to lose almost and entire year between two of my birthdays.


There's also the fact that my earliest memory in life is waking up early in the morning. My older brother was getting ready for school, I was still too young and hadn't started school yet. But even at the time I had zero memory of anything before that and I didn't think the world existed before that moment. I actually thought myself and the entire world came into existence in that moment. What makes it even weirder is I knew who was my family was, I knew were I was despite at the same time feeling like it was the first time I was ever there, and it was the first time I met my dad and my brother... my mother was still asleep but I also knew she existed and who she was before I actually saw her even though I was sure I never seen her before.

I never quested "Where do babies come from?" Because I just figures everyone came into the world in a specific age and role all at the same time. I thought that was normal where everyone just appeared in the world already knowing things about their lives but not knowing why they knew things because nothing existed before that. It makes absolutely no sense and trying to explain it hurts my brain but for a long time I thought everyone had that experience and would understand what I meant but no one understood what I was talking about.

The best way I can describe it is it was like loading into a video game. I had some details on my character's back story like from a user manual but no specific information cause the story didn't start till I spawned in.

Maybe someone here will understand what I mean as it's so hard to try to explain to someone who hasn't experienced this before. The OP's description sounds kinda similar to what I'm trying to describe but not exactly.