The bottom line is: my parents failed me in many ways. And I became f'ed up as a result. I've had multiple abusive relationships and multiple toxic relationships with narcissists and people who don't respect me - not just me, but ANY woman.

I've had to put the pieces back together on my own and through years of therapy.

And what I've learned is that people will fail us and will disappoint. It's a fact of life. People cannot help who they are, and we cannot change them. BUT, we CAN choose to whom we give our hearts - and we CAN choose our friends. We do not have to let in those who are not worthy of our caring and our concern.

My husband is/was not worthy of me, my heart, my caring or my concern. We are wired very differently - our values are very different. Yes, he disappointed me, but that's because I wanted to believe in his words to me in the beginning - about what a caring, loving, honest and FAITHFUL man he is.

The KEY: IF actions DO NOT MATCH words, LEAVE!!!!!!!!!! And LEAVE the moment a red flag is shown.

There are loads of crummy people in this world - LOADS. I know that I have a heart of gold. I know my worth. And I know my values. I am a very caring, ethical, moral and honest person, and I would not hurt a soul.... unless of course, they've hurt me, and then I lash out in anger.

I deserve someone who is just as loyal, moral, honest and ethical as I am, and that is NOT my husband. I've seen him screw over people. I am not the only one he is disrespectful of.

Man, did I really reach low with this one - it's truly time to raise my standards.