Good Morning havehope. You do deserve someone better than your husband. Don’t give in to him. Be strong and brave and be comfortable being alone and independent. A difficult request through holidays but an important first step to rebuilding a strong support system(including yourself) without your husband involved. He will need to do the same. After everything you’ve been through and everything you’ve shared, you are on a path of independence and rekindling your self-worth. Sometimes we need time alone to re-evaluate what we want from life and learn what life has to offer us. We can easily be blinded by past habits and relationships and our instincts to care for and concern ourselves with others. Continue to put yourself first. Good luck and best wishes into the New Year.