Dear MeXoXo,
It sounds like you are in a difficult, difficult situation and I am so very, very sorry you are carrying such heavy burdens. I think it is good that you are no longer in contact with the person who abused you. It is just heartbreaking that you were abused! Hopefully your new antidepressant will help you a lot. I have been helped tremendously by antidepressant medications.
If you have a good therapist, I think he or she will be able to really help you with all the issues you mention. People who have not been afflicted with depression have no idea how much strength and heroism it takes to do things that other people take for granted. I sure hope things get better and better for you. You deserve so much more than to be so heavily burdened!
Sincerely yours, Yao Wen