Sorry to hear about your Christmas. Mine wasn't very stellar, either. In fact, I have spent decades of Christmases alone and this year was no exception. There are times when I wonder if I'll ever spend Christmas with anyone in the future.

What's really painful are people saying "Merry Christmas" to me. I don't know how to react. It seems like those who say that are the ones who seem to have a great Christmas. Not for me, by far.

One guy at work asked me what will I be doing. I told him that I will be alone. He said that he would be alone, too, because his wife is stranded in Canada. He told me that he would invite me to his place next year. Well, why couldn't he have given me the invitation now? Besides, I wouldn't feel comfortable being with a couple when I'm by myself. And then my friend said that I should have asked him to get together with me this year. I have a hard time initiating things, especially to co workers that I don't know that well.

I guess that a lot of people have bad Christmases. To me it always seems like everyone else has it better than I do.