Also I'm sick of being alone and being ok with it. I'm not ok. I have no ****ing partner or kids. And I'm not alone, I know that. But I also feel that I give much more to some people than they deserve, including trying to cultivate relationships with extended family who do not actually care to return / have a relationship with me. I'm fighting the urge to be passive aggressive in a Facebook post. I will pause until the urge passes.