An update:

There have been many sorrowful days in the past month since our separation, many tears and much sadness.

HOWEVER, through all the pain and tears, I have experienced moments and nights filled with sheer joy - joy over feeling like my true self and spirit are coming back to life - joy over the freedom I now can enjoy without him squelching me, abusing me, and insulting me - joy and happiness over the life I can now lead without him, that will be far more fulfilling for me.

I have danced alone in my living room, listening to MY music that I never got to enjoy while with him.

Myself is coming back and for that, I am deeply grateful.