I just go back from therapy, my therapists/Pdoc office is next to the stabilization unit, i burst into tears going there. I do not want to cut right now, but I have revisited the site of my cuts many many times today-i take the bandages off of them and just look at them with disappointment and anger and I feel like I am a really bad person. I have alot of healing to do, we talked about my S.attempt and I cried and told her please don't make me go back to the Stabilization unit, she told me that she thinks it would be good for me, but that is my choice-right now I do not want to-earlier today I was all ready for it, but my mood dropped drastically and now in a way i want everyone to leave me alone, but at the same time i want to talk to people because i am scared to be alone- not sure if that makes sense. i will most likely end up there tonight, i am a failure...