Update: I ended up in the nuthouse over Thanksgiving because after about 8 months the ketamine stopped working even though I was up to 85 mg. a treatment. I was afraid to tell anyone because then I would have to admit it to myself. Ketamine was my last hope or so I thought. I was despondent and very suicidal so my husband took me to the mental hospital where I stayed for five days.
The p-doc at the hospital was asking me what drugs I had tried in the past. It's quite the list and obvious that none of them worked for very long. I couldn't stop crying. I thought I was going to have to suffer with this for the rest of my life and ppl in my family live to be ninety. That terrified me.
Finally, after a Zoom pow wow with my doctors and therapist, they decided to take me off Seroquel and put me on Lithium.
OMG! What a difference! After three weeks on Lithium, I did another Ketamine infusion and I am doing very well!