I get chronic suicidal urges as well. One thing that helps me, is I noticed that there’s a pattern where it becomes more intense but usually the really strong urge doesn’t last more than a day. It’s not to say that I don’t feel suicidal for longer periods, but I know that the more intense suicidal feelings do dissipate some. Something else I’ve noticed through body scan, is when the really strong urges are there my stomach typically hurts to go with it. I will go get some kombucha or ginger ale, etc which seems to help. As odd as it may seem I am not sure if it’s the actual drink or the fact that I am distracted. Something else I did pre-pandemic and will do post pandemic is I would go to the movies if it was really really bad because it removed me from my environment and if it was a good enough movie it would distract me some. I would do this By myself because usually I do not want to be around people when I am feeling that bad. The movies are almost never crowded anymore so it’s a good place to go and be alone and still be away from your environment that could possibly harm you. They say to go get help from mental health professionals, unfortunately with my experience I have not found that to be helpful. I would like to add though that my nephew goes through similar issues, he found his last hospitalization to be very helpful. So I guess there’s two sides!